|Ms Asako Shukuya|
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<Beginning of Quote>Soon after moving into an apartment in Totsuka, Asako found her atopic eczema back again from her days in Gunma prefecture. The apartment was supposed to be her long-awaited safe haven, but she felt too itchy to appreciate the new environment.
She had to pay visits to her dermatologist, only to be treated with stronger steroids with more side effects. The medication showed quick effects, but soon with more spreading rash. It seemed the more medication was applied, the stronger the atopic resistance became and shorter its effects lasted. At its worst, as much as 20 units of steroids were applied in a month!
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In the following spring and summer of 1997, she had to be hospitalized twice. When discharged, her condition looked slightly improved, just to find one-inch-large reddish rashes around her body, driving her mad in scrabbling them but little effect. Eventually, she decided to end this vicious cycle by stopping steroids in July 1998.
But then the rebound! The rash spread all over -- her face, ankles, abdomen and all the way to her back. Reluctantly, she had to ask her mother's help. Five days a week, she had her father drive to her doctor, who was to undo the steroid. Her conditions were horrible: her skin was like a snake with 5-millimeter-square, dry 'scales' peeled off before 'fresh atopic rash' coming up. She saw a total stranger in the mirror with the swollen red face and smashed eyes.
Along with the spreading rash, she began having nightmares. They followed three patterns:
In one pattern, she was chased after by a monster inside a closed room. Her desperate run ended up her being caught.In another, while she was asleep, she saw an invisible zombie-like object talking out all kinds of abusive words to her ear, poking her in the back or clinging to her. Out of frustration and fear, she tried to escape, to no avail as if she had been tied up.The third pattern concerns her family persistently bullying her psychologically. Though full of rage and humiliation, she was unable to rebut. Its location was always her family home.
She woke up sweating all over her body, which was nearly out of the bed. Though she struggled to stay in the middle, she felt immobile like being bound hand and foot. The dreams were so real to Asako that their negative impacts persisted with palpitation all day long.
Her drinking habit from the days in Gunma continued, even resorting to whisky while she felt in the high. Her whisky consumption increased from one month a bottle, two weeks, one week, four days and, by the year 2000 only two days to finish a bottle!
There was little regular pattern between sleep and arousal. For instance, the conditions of one week in January of a certain year was as follows:
January 23rd: 4 AM - 8 AM asleep 4 hours
January 23rd: 8 AM - 5 AM of 24th awake for 21 hrs
January 24th: 5 AM - 3 PM asleep 10 hrs
January 24th: 3 PM - 10 AM of 25th awake for 19 hours
January 25th: 10 AM - 3 PM asleep 5 hrs
January 25th: 3 PM - 12 noon of 26th awake for 20 hours
January 26th: 12 noon - 6 PM asleep for 6 hrs
January 26th: 6 PM - 10 PM of 27th awake for 28 hrs
January 27th: 10 PM - 5 PM of 28th asleep for 19 hrs
January 28th: 5 PM - 12 noon of the 29th awake for 19 hrs
January 29th: 12 noon - 6 PM asleep for 6 hours
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The confinement in the name of "protection" ended and I started to live on my own. However, It took me 5 years to become to be able to express my feelings.
It looks like that I have unconsciously reflected my daily feelings and formed a new personality and thoughts which I had not had before by connecting many other people during this 5-year period.
The "protection" ended externally when I renounced the faith. However, I never received "protection" which captors were supposed to give in terms of liberation of my heart. They have not offered such protection, nor noticed the importance of giving protection.
I have finally noticed that my heart is crying out for liberation, and I've just started something at last.
I finally found Ms Asako Shukuya.I made a telephone call to her to ask for an interview. I expected she would hesitate to be interviewed. Contrary to that, she started to spout, and continued to talk for 2 hours. Asako was lonely.The relationships with the UC members were lost after she renounced the Church. As she became critic to deprogramming practices, anti-Unification Church group started to ignore her. She had no one to talk to even if she wanted to pour out.
|Pastor Yoshio Shimizu on SBS TV program, deprogrammer of Asako|
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